Finally getting out of abuse, happy, but feel confused and sad?

I am moving out next week and wish to stay apart from my husband for a couple of months. I have tried my best to live with him and give up all the expectations a woman has but I was stuck in a limbo and needed some time apart away from him. We have had no since 1.5 years. He didn't want to try therapist, thought he was depressed but turned out he was not, started emotionally abusing and haring me. I made a decision to move out 6 months back but he constantly followed me, spied on me and caught me and then made my life miserable by fighting and yelling. I had to be very secretive this time while looking for a place to move in. I have got everything ready and moving out next week. I am calling in sick after he leaves for work and moving all my stuff out as soon as I can. I don't like to be secretive and like to be open about everything but his behavior has forced me to do this. I am feeling very bad partly, because he doesn't think that he hares me but I don't think that is true. Time will put a confirmation on that. As a little girl my mom taught me how marriage happens only once and that's it. I feel really bad that my destiny ditched me. I am feeling bad about moving out but happy too. Has any of this ever happened to you? Please advise. Thank you for reading.